I wasn’t going to participate in this. I’m not usually one for grand statements and inspirational quotes.
But… maybe I am after all. I may have learnt something new about myself already this year. And it’s only day five!
What’chu talkin’ ’bout, Willis? Forgive the pre-post rambling. Let me explain.
I read the post she wrote about her word for this year (and you should too – here’s the link again). And instead of rolling my eyes at the naffness (naffity?) of living by a single word, I found myself nodding along. Not to her one word. But to every word of the post.
And as I thought about how to respond to her post, and answer her final question, a word jumped out at me. Usually, I think about these things, can’t think of a word, throw a joke one in there, and then think of a few the next day that maybe possibly perhaps MIGHT be okay… ish.
But there was no ignoring this word. Perhaps it’s because I’ve become much clearer about what I want to achieve lately. I have goals and plans. And I believe that this one word will help me achieve them.
Are you ready? Here it comes… (drumroll)…
(Oh, I said that already? In the title? Whoops. Spoiler alert.)
I have writing goals. Steady will help me. I won’t rush at things full speed, burn out and get despondent about the writer’s block. I will create a pattern. I will be steady.
I have blogging goals. Steady will help me. I will continue with my plan. If new things develop, or I get new inspiration that takes me on a different path, I will assess it and formulate a new plan. Or assess it and put the new idea aside. I will be calm. I will be focused. I will be steady.
I have health and fitness goals. Steady will help me. I will build my fitness and strength. I will work with my doctors. I will not make my first long-distance run in more than six years a 10km run/sprint/walk/crawl/gasp for water that knocks me to the floor and renders me immobile the next day. I will do what I can. And the next time, I will do a bit more. I will listen to my body. I will be steady.
I have coordination goals. Steady will help me. Hopefully I won’t be able to add any more verses to Dumb ways to get hurt this year. I will be steady.
I have personal goals. And this is where steady will help me the most.
Confession time: I’ve been feeling burnt out at home lately. I’ve been snapping at the kids and counting down the minutes until the end of the day. I’ve thought about going back to work. About care, about nannies, about building the work from home to justify it all, about abandoning the freelance thing to head back into the corporate world: these and many more options.
But after the honest questions and the brutal self-analysis, I know it’s not a work thing. It’s a me-time thing. I simply don’t have enough time that is just about me. And that’s not good enough for an introvert.
Steady will help me. I will breathe. I will calm myself. I will acknowledge when I need time to myself, and I will take that time for myself. And I will not feel guilty about it.
Eventually. I will be steady.
(Anyone else read the word ‘steady’ so many times that it no longer seems like a real word?!)
So there you have it. Steady is my word for 2015.